Very boring day. I frankly didn't do much today either. I fixed some cosplay stuff I guess, I started some old personal project again, but it wasn't very notable. Anyone else feel a drifty feeling? P.S. Don't die.

Today was unbelievably boring

@PrinceDraconis12 Oh now that you mentioned my grades aren't good TT They just dropped randomly four years ago ever since then no matter how hard I study I just can't get a good grade It's hard to be optimistic when you're this alone It's way worse when you have a family that seem absolutely depressed and crazy and don't really care about you, just being in the same roof as them makes me uncomfortable sometimes Despite having bad grades I just really really want to leave this country or at least buy a house in my own country far from anyone I know and both of these seem really impossible I feel like smart people in school either have a great family or great friends I don't know how to explain this it's like something is encouraging them and they're not feeling empty everyday But yeah I won't be killing myself and honestly I'm gonna try not to be so negative everyday lol maybe some miracle will happen Thanks for your kind words

mmm life? dreams? man I had a dream last night where I played a video game. I don't have shit going on compared to you guys.

I suppose since everyone here is talking about how their lives are going, I may as well add my voice to the conversation despite the fact I will be significantly less poetic and comparatively lacking in emotional intensity. I have a new job which I've been working at for about a month and a half now. The hours are long which leaves me with little off time. The time I do have is mostly spend working on a number of projects which have been ongoing for some time now. Thus, I am worked to the bone and chronically sleep deprived. At the same time, my living situation is deteriorating and I will need to find a new place within the next few months. In that aspect, anything good must always be accompanied with something bad. I have recently grown very annoyed with The Internet Archive. I noticed just today that a large number of my uploads have been deleted from the archive. This is frustrating since I tend to upload in bulk meaning noticing which of my hundreds of uploads are missing is a very difficult task. In the end, my only recourse is to reupload the files and hope they remain archived this time. While most of the things I upload are files I keep a local copy of, some are not since I do not have a large server to store files on. Some of the removed files are reuploads of content which have been censored or deleted so their removal from the archive is especially frustrating. In any case, these removals simply make me worried about our ability to maintain complete records and archives of history and serve to reinforce my view that all who wish to preserve history or online content maintain personal copies of their files rather than leaving it all to a third party such as The Internet Archive. If you read this far, thank you and I hope you have a good day. I know that my stories do not align as closely with the normal discussions found here, but I still wish offer my perspective on the world and what's happening in it. Once again, have a good day, or at least a moment of calm.

@give me twilight I fail to completely understand what you are trying to say with the majority of your messages. Despite that, I find that they are very interesting nonetheless. This message serves no greater purpose. I merely wish to express my fascination with your writing and the glimpses you offer into your mind.

@Whitenoise I'm glad to hear that you're doing a little better. No matter what ups and downs life you throw at you, I hope you continue your upward trajectory. Myself and everyone else here is behind you, man. @YuYuMi I'm happy to see that, at least in this online space, you can find people that do care about you. As someone who used to be well and truly alone, I encourage you to remain as optimistic as possible. You don't have to be chipper all day, but don't despair. Life will improve for you eventually. Similarly, don't give up on school. Even if you are unable to experience the true extent of its social aspect, don't give up on your studies. I only got to where I am now because of my education. In spite of how cliche it may seem, having knowledge does open a lot of doors, and if you have choices for where to go in life you'll find it far easier to create a situation for yourself wherein you are able to be happy.

i see humans all around me but they arent human why do you pretend to belong its funny i see through your poor disguise ya bathroom wench

im here

my previous 4 dreams had unlocked my brain, and the 3 prior to that were preparing me for my departure. all i have to do now is abandon this world now that i’ve seen the parade beyond. this is a warning. if you dont do pain you dont do pleasure. there is no escape from your yearn for acceptance, it is within you. the only way to rewrite? is there only one? ¿1? to be equal to a math equation. i wanted to be equal to the ouroboros. i figure-eight my nervous system im prescribed placebo pills¿ there is no change if there is that isnt me you dont talk to me anymore i was wiped. chisa was after me, can you see the glimmer and twi in her eyes when she jumps everybody hi bye everybody bye hi hi ! tubrbing intou -0-0-01000010101010101010110110110————

my previous 4 dreams had unlocked my brain, and the 3 prior to that were preparing me for my departure. all i have to do now is abandon this world now that i’ve seen the parade beyond. this is a warning. if you dont do pain you dont do pleasure. there is no escape from your yearn for acceptance, it is within you. the only way to rewrite? is there only one? ¿1? to be equal to a math equation. i wanted to be equal to the ouroboros. i figure-eight my nervous system im prescribed placebo pills¿ there is no change if there is that isnt me you dont talk to me anymore i was wiped. chisa was after me, can you see the glimmer and twi in her eyes when she jumps everybody hi bye everybody bye hi hi ! tubrbing intou -0-0-01000010101010101010110110110————

I've read about it, but I don't really believe in it. Although, years ago, I used to try to enter another world through my dreams lol. It never happened, but it was fun to try, and I enjoyed the experience.

dreaming reveals your thoughts to yourself, do you believe in any of the theories about dreams being a way to another world

Dreams are strange. And I think they're powerful. They can bring back memories you've forgotten for years. They can make you miss people you hadn't thought about in a long time. I'm still amazed that a food I used to hate became my favorite just because I dreamed about it.

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