Lord give me one more chance

how can we find the meaning of living?

Hello

everything seems scary now but thats only natural when youre getting adjusted to new things brandish your thoughts like a sword

dont count your days, make them count

thats not something for me to decide

lonely…I want to cry but I can't… Do you think I'm annoying? ……

yes,I'm mad…but why am I mad? Is anyone here…

What is the meaning of living in this world for me?! Why do I have to live like this?! Die! Hahahahahaha! What is the hope? hahahahaha!

I feel so tired… Actually... sometimes I also want to die, but I don't have the courage... I always feel pain, but... what else can I do? I'm so tired living in school my classmates are scheming and trying to get along with you on the surface, but as soon as I turn around, they start gossiping. I'm really fed up, but I can't possibly transfer schools… The academic pressure is so high, and I also have to go to accommodation. I really want to live a good life, but every time I do, I deserve it. maybe…I truly serve my right… I have no friends, and I can't speak, and I'm useless except for grades. I'm really fed up with it, but I can't leave. I can't say what to do if I'm tired… I want to help others, but I need their help. It's really funny. I'm such a poor person, haha is anyone here? please help me…hehe

to Hier: yes,I'm from china:) are you also from china? (hehe)

why do I feel so hopeless…what should I do? a life will disappear but I can't do anything what can I do? Is anyone there? who can help me…

Aiutami: What are you doing?!are you still here?Don't do anything foolish! please……I don't want you died,please:( are you still here,Aiutami? At least, I'll be waiting for you here tonight whether you are here or not

tldr: i love you dont kill yourself

even if you do end up doing something awful, whats that gonna solve? youll just pass that pain to more people (including me btw, love you) and give up any chances youd have to make your life better. even if everyone in your life hates you and uses you, even if nothing good ever happens to you, it DOES get better, i can say from experience. the fact that you cant stab yourself means you still have hope, and you know there are people that love you, so dont do anything stupid (please).