i love you all, wired people

Hey, Lain. I don't know what exactly is going on with you or this site in general, but... I hope we all get answers soon. Stay strong, Lain. And remember: You're never alone <3

hi

Let's all love lain!

U're weird. Stay connected :D

i am ashamed to admit this, but i am very ashamed of myself im pretty much just an annoyance or burden to the people around me, and thats when im not being a problem to them every once in a while, like someone is flipping a switch inside my brain, i just get a wave of black lust over my mind and body. then i do some very bad things to myself and others, and i feel those sins weighing me down day by day im not a downer nor a pessimist, and i dont think im crazy, schizophrenic or anything like that. im kind of weird, but i am a normal human being. i feel very convicted for those things ive done, and i really want to change, but ive been wanting to change for a few years now and im still the same. i wonder if vaas was right about the definition of insanity being doing the same thing over and over expecting something to change. i think he was wrong, because im not crazy lol yeah, this is not an admission of guilt to any crimes or felonies, i havent done anything illegal, im just ranting. also, im seeing new people here welcome ヾ(•ω•`)o

L yeah i agree it helps with feeling more balanced and it makes other things easier to deal with

ameri makes me more at peace seeing someone say that, i feel like there's this pressure i don't even know towards what exactly in life even disregarding the social expectations. can muddle the vision

agent zzz там где я живу можно отлично погулять ну и минимальный спорт просто подумать или наоборот не думать , у меня все тело ноет постоянно но когда ходишь меньше

stay hollow, and love will rush to fill you, no need for fufillment

my waking life feels a bit like i'm on standby. i know i can take everything in my own hands and we supposedly only live once, but it's just fish climbing a tree blah blah and nothing i say is understood. i'm just outside this all the worst times of my life is when i'm not aware of that and just live a passive braindead life. a bit like misa iwakura after the thing you know. i just wish there was somebody, and i have friends, close friends, the ones i am connected with but there is always a layer of... i just can't find fulfillment in human community i guess.

i don't get why i have a 3d physical body. it just feels burdensome. after returning to civilian life from dreaming/computer it just feels like a inconvenient flesh mecha, maybe a certain type of consciousness just manifests this way and it is needed for something, but it is hard to connect to 3d reality and the people in there and their experience and reality and everything about this world is very alien

I hate who I am right now

Wine drunk right now. i cant stop fantasising about running away and abandoning my friends, boyfriend and family. Life is shallow, i am selfish. Let this be your reminder to not make a mediocre life for yourself. The depression ruins you

Got employed, decent job with above average pay… at least where I live. Hate the job though since I want to break through in the cybersecurity or some of IT job.