andre
August 17, 2026 at 2:54:55 AM
Im ashamed of myself and of my actions in this household. My family are religious Catholic very "by the bible" people. I'm forced to go to church almost everyday, unless my work gets in the way of the mass schedules. I'm 18 but feel like a child, having no social life other than talking to those at my church.
being online is my escapism. online, I can be who I truly am, who I want to be, say what I want to say. my online version of myself is the real me, not the other way around.
I'm scared that i'll forever be stuck in this endless loop of prayer, confession, fasting, sacrifice, and shame. I always feel like a sinner, because I know that I am. I know what I am.
I shouldn't have these thoughts. I shouldn't feel like this. if God is real and loving no matter the situation, then please Lord, save me from the people who follow you