a bad believer
December 5, 2025 at 9:20:17 PM
i am a real person. we are all real people. and to the people i’ve once called friends: i am sorry i can no longer love you outloud. instead, i will love from a distance. it hurts more than anything. this pain i feel is more real than ever before.
lain, i wish i knew how to do what you do. im still tethered to reality by those who still love me. i want to be far away from it all, like you are, i want my own controlled space. where my precense can come and go. lain, i know i shouldnt aspire to be you, because i can never be you, but still i think it.
