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March 23, 2026 at 10:36:45 PM
They might hate me but they don’t know how much I would sacrifice for them in a life or death situation. In my opinion, the school isn't that good, I don't think any of my classmates like me and it's pretty tiring. I don't think anything improved, in fact I feel like things are getting worse. I'm feeling more tired and a lot sicker. I don’t think my mama wants to be my mama anymore. I keep making her late for work :( she said we’ll be broke because of me :( Today school was okay because my class wasn’t here (like all week). I’ve even been looking forward to going there. Sadly in English with Miss Kapinska I almost fainted… next week my class is coming back :( I hate them….. they make me so sad. I feel like such a burden and i don’t know what to do about it. I’ve been so dry lately and just avoiding people, I feel like it’s getting worse. I get so angry at people for no reason… I showered the first time in like a week or two but just because my mom got angry and she checked after. I don’t feel well, i feel like fainting. I’d rather not come to my house ever, i really don’t wanna go there. I don’t want to get shouted at, I just wanna sleep over at someone’s house. I just want a place to call home. I hate seeing people happy or when things go their way. Im jealous, jealous to the point of throwing up. It’s getting worse, I’ve gone back to not eating much. I downloaded Yazio again. I’m 2 days clean but I don’t know if I can keep any longer, this is the deepest I’ve ever cut. I fucking hate myself. Why am I so apathetic, i should be happy for them.